Day 66

Mia died.  It was horrible.  I finally had her euthanized.  I wish I had known that she wouldn't make it.  She suffered so much in vain.  I'm exhausted and heartbroken.  I was going to take a photo of her today as an update, but no one needs to see her that way.  The whites of her eyes were black this morning when I picked her up, and she was skin and bones.  She wagged her little tail when she saw me though!  She stayed awake and stared at me for about 2 hours on the way to the regular vet.  She used her last bit of strength to get her front half on my lap, and then she was unconscious.  I couldn't wake her up.  It was literally 1 mile from the vet that she lost consciousness.  I could feel her tiny heart beating on my leg way harder than it should've been and her breathing was labored.  Her nose had water coming out and she voided her bowels.  I couldn't let her suffer anymore.  I honestly think that she would have died within the next 10 minutes, but at least that was 10 minutes she didn't have to suffer.  It was so hard.  I stayed with her and talked to her while they put her to rest.  She still had the IV catheter in her leg from the emergency clinic so they didn't even have to stick her.  She didn't deserve to suffer like that.  She was only 3 months old.  I will never get another dog as long as  I live.  It feels like I have lost a child.   I am completely heartbroken.